Travel Diary and stuff

When you're in high school, college, universities, that's what everyone talks about - chasing Passion/ chasing dreams/ chasing something.  I was once one of them as well, chasing something, chasing dreams, ambitions, aspirations. Thinking about what I could be, what I can be, what is possible, what is out there waiting for me. To dream of working living abroad, to dream of flying around the world, hopping from one major city to the next. Thinking who I want to be when I grow up.  That's what drives us as kids.  As grown up, just three months away from turning 30, I stopped chasing. I lost sight of what I should be chasing for, every single day flew by so swiftly that I couldn't even recount what exactly I did yesterday. Piled up backlogs waiting to be cleared up, and there's just something new coming in every single day. More problems waiting to be solved, more updating waiting to be updated, and just an endless pit of decisions waiting to be made. Wher...

The idea of Friendship at this point in my life is so different as compared to many years ago, I've fallen out with a few good friends that I no longer bother to rekindle, but of course nobody tells their once good friends that we don't enjoy hanging out with them now so there's still the courtesy hang out once in a blue moon.  I no longer have the energy to invest in friendship that require me to keep giving a lot of my time and energy. That is truly a test, because some people just walk away when they no longer stay as the centre of attention in your life, when you no longer bend backwards for them, they just walk away.  It's okay, just want to tell myself it's okay. I have my amazing family and husband, so blessed, perhaps God is watching after me, taking away all these stressors from my life so I can focus and see what's truly good and people who are truly there despite ups and downs. 

Hi Future Sue,  How's life? How's life after crossing the big 30 mark? Is it scary, do you have more than 1 kid now? Do you have the career you're proud of now? Are you still married? Happy?  The 29 year old me is writing this to you, gave birth to Oliver about 6 months ago and I am madly in love with him. My MIL drives me crazy every now and then but happy to have her around to help watch the little guy when I come to ACL for work, my mom drives me nuts a bit too but she helps out with Oliver whenever I need to take a little break away, just came back from Singapore after attending Connie's ROM actually.  Are you still breastfeeding the kids? Still using that same Spectra pump I bought in 2017? Or have you successfully overcome the nipple problem and now is being a full time nursing mom? How many kids you have btw? Your concern about not having enough space for the kids, is it still a concern now? Or have you already moved into the Batu Kawan house? Does S...

Finally, a great examination!  Went in for the baby CTG scan today just to make sure everything is okay. Was guided by Debra to the first floor labour room for the scan. According to the nurse who did the scan, baby heart beat is good and strong! The sister also came in and said that my legs are swollen, gotta remember to keep them up at night.  After the CTG scan, we went up to see Doctor Maha. My blood pressure was okay also, and doctor manage to do the doppler scan and she said they're all okay! Baby also seem to have increased weight but not sure if it's because of how the doctor took the measurement. Amniotic fluid level was also fair.  We are happy with the results, went home feeling relieved and happy. 

Started moving my work stuff back home, hopefully can do some of the work from home but still feeling enormous guilt for not accompanying Steven to office, felt like as if I am leaving him to face all the problems all by himself.  Star Wars  Star Wars was released! Me and Daddy went to watch it, unfortunately something went wrong with the premier class hall, we ended up getting refund and watched the movie in a normal hall. Dad was disappointed with the movie, and yeah it does feel kinda draggy. But starting to think about how much our baby going to be sort of "Star Wars" related. Hubby decided he wants the baby name to be Chew Han Yang, earlier we both kinda decided on the Christian name Oliver, but ever since the Malay name got decided, I've been wanting to call the baby Han/Hans. To my sudden realisation, there is a character in Star Wars called Han Solo, and his sidekick is Chewbacca (aka Chewie). Come on... There's Han and there's Chew and there's ...

Our dearest baby, are you going to be a 2017 December baby or a 2018 January baby?  It has been very challenging, stressful ever since the accident and trying our best to resolve everything that is happening.  Physical Changes  Been hearing a lot about how women feel horrible about their body during and post pregnancy, I guess I got a real kick from it this week with lots of things happening to the body.  It has been getting more and more difficult to sleep on the side comfortably at night, and often find myself waking up in the middle of the night struggling to change position to make myself comfortable.  Acnes breaking out, have itch going on all over my body especially my sensitive areas, and my belly button has been acting out weirdly by discharging some brown fluid. Overall, making me feel like as if I am the most disgusting person on earth. It feels extremely horrible especially being in front of my hubby with certain parts of the skin...

We have been reading up the baby books and many seem to suggest that going on a babymoon to just enjoy some together time before the baby arrives is one of the must do things for first time parents.  Yes, I do feel a lot of anxiety daily thinking about how our quiet peaceful life and our let's just travel to anywhere we wish at anytime is all going to change once the baby comes. We are going to have a new member who will always be part of our plan, looking for baby friendly places/locations, safety becomes top priority, baby friendly restaurants, not to mention a third wheel sharing our room with us until god knows how old he's going to be.  We departed around 10am on Friday morning (13 October) head straight to Banjaran Hot Spring. Traffic was clear and smooth and we arrived by 1pm, but the room wasn't ready. We explored around the resort while waiting for the room to be ready. I really like the big helicopter looking fans that are placed around the resort. The...