The Chase

When you're in high school, college, universities, that's what everyone talks about - chasing Passion/ chasing dreams/ chasing something. 

I was once one of them as well, chasing something, chasing dreams, ambitions, aspirations. Thinking about what I could be, what I can be, what is possible, what is out there waiting for me. To dream of working living abroad, to dream of flying around the world, hopping from one major city to the next. Thinking who I want to be when I grow up. 

That's what drives us as kids. 

As grown up, just three months away from turning 30, I stopped chasing. I lost sight of what I should be chasing for, every single day flew by so swiftly that I couldn't even recount what exactly I did yesterday. Piled up backlogs waiting to be cleared up, and there's just something new coming in every single day. More problems waiting to be solved, more updating waiting to be updated, and just an endless pit of decisions waiting to be made. Where do you even find that little space that allows you to sit and let your mind drift off aimlessly? Or to find time to read a book just to be inspired?

It's no longer about chasing, instead is about finding it within. You don't chase over some rainbow, instead, you find the rainbow within you. When you don't even have the time to look for the rainbow, we try to look inside our cramped up schedule, the familiar faces every day to find a little bit of rainbow in our everyday lives. It may not be as beautiful as a full-blown rainbow hanging over the sky, but it makes our day to day a little bit more interesting and that little bit of happiness builds up over time. 


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