Week 30

Fast forward, I have been pregnant for 30 weeks! 

Purchased baby insurance - That was a pretty long story since I was so worried with my overweight issues and all I couldn't get the prenatal insurance but luckily all went well and baby is now insured! Did the glucose test, it was not easy at all! I got pricked like 3 times 2 hours apart each time and had to gulp down a cup of super sweet glucose water the second time. Luckily result came back okay, still have to take good care and maintain consistently. 

Spent RM5700 for the baby cord blood collection thingy, I believe that is the most expensive purchase so far. Got it from the baby fair in Penang SPICE. 

We kinda decided on the baby name, well Steven didn't quite like my dream baby name so we kinda decided on another name, which Michelle happens to love but Shuang doesn't seem to be a fan of it. As long as dad and mum loves it, who cares! Our beloved baby-O. 

We went to Banjaran Hotspring and Cameron Highlands for our baby moon during week 27.  We got a very lovely upgrade for our room and I enjoyed the time in Banjaran very much, its just a bit sucky that I couldn't fully enjoy most of the hot spring facilities around there because of the pregnancy. Steven walked the jungle trail the next morning, and there was a little drama there because I was supposed to meet him at the end of the trail. After talking to the receptionist only I realise that the end of the trail is locked because it's just too early and they couldn't bring me over there to meet him. He was freaked out with the animals sounds in the jungle and probably some coming from Lost World of Tambun. Eventually he made a U turn and walked all the way back to meet me at the resort. Oh yes, Steven also overcome his fish spa fear while we were at Banjaran. 

After spending a night in Banjaran, we head up to Cameron Highlands. Elaine's family and mom joined us later in Cameron Highlands, it was not cold and it was super jam. Steven managed to squeeze in a trail run and seem very very happy about it. If he's happy, I'm happy. 

Many happened after coming back from the baby moon. Most memorably one would be when I had a little meltdown with the baby cots, was thinking about throwing away all the cots but senses kicked in. I'm about to become a mother, I cannot always let other people's opinions or judgments get in my way of doing what is best for my baby. 

So far I'm really enjoying the pregnancy very much, every single day feels quite special having the baby inside me, Steven by my side. He has been stepping up a lot since I got pregnant, I think can just easily leave the company with him and he can manage well. He really is an amazing person having to do all the dirty work, the challenging side of the business that I'm terrible at, dealing with all the conflicts. 

I'm really loving our quiet mornings, quiet nights and quiet weekends. It's a bit scary thinking about how all that is going to be different once we have a new member in the house. Of course I am more than grateful to have the baby, a baby boy, but at the same time anxiety filling up thinking about all those horror stories about crying babies, night feedings, explosive poops and out of control kids. 

I think every pregnant lady has anxiety, concerns, worries, thinking about how the child is going to grow up to be, if we're well prepared to become parents for the baby, what if we screw up the baby along the way? What if we just suck? Horrible parents = horrible kids = society problems = world eh problem? Not to mention having to deal with all the judgments, opinions, negative comments, old wife's tales, taboos, dos and don't from all the people around us. Opinions are so free these days, everybody has got to have one. Seriously, sometimes wish I could just say SHUT UP SHUT UP AND SHUT UP! Leave us alone while we dig into our ice cream. 

Should we breastfeed or should we formula feed? Should we even standby formula for the baby? Do we need a changing table or not? Just change on the floor? How to wash poopy diaper? Do we actually need two washing machines? What the. Heck? Can we just mix them up together? Cannot? Can? Baby detergent? Eczema?  Keeping baby alive?!!!!! 

Had 2 kit Kat this morning and decided to skip work today, yeah just cause I can! Mama needs her break once in a while kay, and this kind of quiet days are the days that I'm going to be missing when I type my next blog post with a baby attached to my boob. Stil feels like a kid, can't believe I'm about to be raising another kiddo soon! Full time job they said. No more hiding at home eating Kit Kat? 

Last dreamt of dad we were both sitting by the door at Tambun House watching over the garden as baby peanut runs around the garden exploring it. How I wish this dream could come true, that you're still here with us and I can share this joy together with you. You might probably drive me and Steven crazy but missing you more than ever every single day.

Week 30 - 1.6kg 

I should really update more often, just a log for myself to read during those stressful times to remind myself, it will all be worth it, it will all be worth it, and once today has passed, I will never get today back again. Once our baby grew past 1 year old, I will not get to kiss and cubit the one year old cheeks again. He is going to grow up, he is going to live his own lives, walk his own paths, his own journey some day. Cherishing every single day we get to spend together as a family.